I won't go into what happened in detail; but lets just say that over a hundred pairs of eyes were turned towards me for a fleeting moment, and I lost my mind for a second or two. I'm not kidding. All thought left my head, and I was just looking to the door and thinking if it was plausible to leap across the chairs and over people's heads just to make it out of the room. I backed into my chair as though a gust of wind from a typhoon 14 was blowing in my opposite direction.
Some people think social anxiety is an easily 'curable' thing; I beg to differ. People who say that sort of thing are likely the ones who has never experienced it. I'm trying to improve my anxiety issues; I'm starting to make more eye contact with people when talking, I'm actually talking again, I'm going out of the apartment (asides from going to class or meetings).
I know one of my friends from high school has the same problem when in social situations; but we both refuse to bring up the issue when in each other's company. Damnit, it's as though we're ashamed to be so awkward in one of the most basic instinctive behaviours in humans; and I am refering to inter-personal communication. At least we're not making excuses for ourselves; so the one route now is up.
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